Just something to think about if you don't have Aspergers Syndrome or Autism and a little inside view of what's it like to have Autism and to socialize
You're with a group of people and everyone in this group are making weird or strange hand signs or movements and are moving their bodies in a peculiar way.
Only the people in this group knows what what these weird movements means and seems very natural to them. They look unto you to contribute to the conversation, but your mind is stuck on something else and you haven't a clue about anything of the topic.
You hate it when people aren't talking about the things you like because their too busy making small talk about things like music, gossip or something they saw on television.
Also, you have to think about these things a lot and start to get anxious about what to do or say or worry that they'll start picking on you or tell you to leave as well as fear that you won't get accepted by the people in this group because you like others things.
It seems that this group of people not only know these weird movements but it comes automatically to them and they don't have to think about what the movements mean or about what to say.
You seem to be the only one who has a problem deciphering these movements and what's worse is you don't even know why.
Suddenly, you have an idea about the possibility of seeing if anyone in this group of strange people would be interested in your abnormal interests or obsession but nobody seems to care or changes the conversation back to something you could care less about.
You are now sad and bored with these people and is thinking about your interests and leave. These strange people seems to think you are stupid because you have a blank look on your face or dazed look but in reality, you are in your own little world, trying to escape to your happy place until you can be alone and by yourself.
When you try to explain this people, your brain seems to have trouble expressing this and your thinking about the best way to explain it but get frustrated at yourself or the people because of this. This happens when you notice or hear a certain noise or other sensation that really bothers you and doesn't seem to effect others.
You don't know why but you need to socialize with people even if they don't understand you and just being around them and ignored seems to be okay but you still wish that you could be accepted by them.
Later you go home or to your favorite secluded place and do your own thing and when you feel tired, you go to bed and do this all over again....
This is just one day with Asperger's Syndrome and Autism